The Hardest Decision I Need to Make!

When my husband move to Seattle two months ago, I wasn’t really happy the idea of being alone because this is our very 1st time being apart. Even though we both commute back and fort, but still the situation is difficult to manage being away from each other you see. But I can’t really complain much because this is part of his job and is the only source income that we are depending on. My job it isn’t much although it helps greatly for the kids back home but that’s pretty obvious that it isn’t enough here to live on. And that’s the reason I only think my job is my past time as I don’t like to stay at home doing nothing because I would die of boredom.

Anyway, the main reason I brought this subject up is because I need to make a huge decision of what do to after the holiday. My husband gave me three options either I stay here in Texas, or go to Seattle to be with him or go to Philippines and raise the kids. I feel overwhelmed and confuse right now though. Of course I want to be with my husband and raise the kids as well, but I can’t have both as we can’t bring the three kids here for all I know it would cost too much money and it is expensive here to raise kids. So I don’t have the vaguest idea what to do right now!

And if I choose to move to Philippines, I have to sell the house first as I don’t want to leave it empty and no reason to pay bills if we are no longer here. We are paying four household right now and it’s kinda hard already as it is, so I see no reason to pay extra more bills with an empty house you know. So I guess I have to think hard to make this decision, and I know it is very tough decision to make as there are many things to consider. I love it here, but it's really hard being away from hubby so I might join him in Seattle sometime in January. We shall see though, because I hate to leave my friends behind as they are my family too. So it is really huge decision and the toughest one to make eh? Why life can’t be so easy....at least once in a while?